I worry. I worry all the time. Have I mentioned this before?
I worry about telling people bad news. I worry about saying no to things. I worry about getting my house clean before people come over. I worry about my kids getting sick. I worry about Billy driving every day. I worry about visiting/not visiting family enough. I. Worry.
and... it's wrong. It isn't biblical and it's definitely not the way the Lord wants me to enjoy my life and family.
Today my devotions focused on planning and worry... right after I sent an email attempting to plan things and worrying about how to fix the problem... Yep. Thanks, God, for the reminder. :)
Part of the devotion said "You will not find My peace by engaging in excessive planning: attempting to control what will happen to you in the future... Just when you think you have prepared for all possibilities something unexpected pops up and throws things into confusion..." - HELLO AMERICA! This is the story of my life. I plan and plan and then things change and I feel all screwed up. Which is frustrating... so then I take out my frustration on my poor and constantly loving husband (bless his heart!). It's crazy, I know, but I don't like surprises and like to feel completely prepared. Which is crazy since I have 2 kids and a husband who's work schedule can change daily not to mention a group of friends are the complete opposite of me in many ways!! :)
Anyway, today it's already been thrown in my face that I am not in control and that I can't always fix things. I've already been reminded that worrying doesn't solve my problems... but praying can. There are so many verses are out there to remind me to trust the Lord, to focus on Him, to allow His will... and today I received several of those reminders. So today, when I'm anxious... when I'm planning... when I'm frustrated... when I'm worrying... I'm going to turn it over to God in prayer and allow Him to work out the details.
~Kristin...
